Sourav, NEET has nothing to do with you being a compartment student or a first class student. All it matters to NTA is you secure a minimum aggregate of 50% in Physics, Chemistry and Biology in your 12th. It is 50% for General Category, 45% for PWD and 40% for OBC,SC,ST. Unfortunately, NTA doesn't consider emotions while looking at the eligibility and it looks at merit. So you have to earn it. And NEET is just an entrance examination which is a non living entity. NTA is the exam conducting authority. Now it is not a human being that corrects your paper in NEET or evaluates you. It is done by a system. It wouldn't know that Sourav is a compartment student or he would commit suicide if rejected. So it will continue to do its job and guage you on your performance and not on your state of mind. So keep the emotions aside and work hard. If you score the required aggregate against your Category, you can appear for NEET and from there on how you score is based on how you perform.