Hello

Well, according to your performance it seems you're bit diverted and so into this situation. I would say.. that no need to worry about.. just stay calm and focus and think that what you want to do exactly.. like 'are you ready to perform again in 2019.. would you give yourself a fresh start and determine to do it anyhow this time..  Then only come to a decision. Also it'll be good enough if you discuss this situation of yours in deep with your family.. means you'll get support and also kind of encouragement for whatever decision You'll come to.  And suppose if no.. then you should think of any other field that you feel you can do great in and as per your interest. Hope you're getting my point.!

Think properly and then come to a decision. If you know that you can do it.. then go for it..!!!
Then No ifs and No but.s..  just go for it.!
Rest all depends on your interest and choice.

Not all people succeed at their first attempts or in the journey.. Of their career...  but that doesn't mean you'll stop trying or can't do any other thing. So whatever decision you make.. do it with all your heart.!

Good Luck.!!!