fear of facing society after so many years of continous faliure.again nd again how to again standup myself with each productive day

Dear aspirant,

I understand your situation. Even though this answer might seem cliche, understand that failure has been and will be a part of everyones's life. It is completely fine. Find something you are passionate about and start pursuing it, there will always be people who are willing to support, help and care for you. That will help you build faith and confidence again. Seek professional help if necessary. Make a plan for yourself and stick with it, try to stick with your plan as much as you can. There only one way from rock bottom, so don't worry.

Hope this helps